WHO IS THIS?

Have you ever asked Jesus a dumb question? As a young person, I asked God for a famous singing career. I’m so glad God slammed the door on that one. God also knows that I don’t have the thick skin needed for an industry that delights in shattering self-worth. He has given me a life that is so much more satisfying. Sometimes we become anxious and ask Jesus questions, but He has already demonstrated His wonderful character. The problem is, I don’t always listen. Many times in my life, I have conveniently ignored God’s voice and Who He is.

FEAR AND DOUBT REPLACED THEIR FAITH

Some of the disciples asked Jesus dumb questions, ones they should have already known the answers to. During a terrifying storm on the Sea of Galilee, their boat was being covered with the waves, and they began to be swamped and were in danger. At this point, Jesus was asleep and had to be awakened. The disciples were unnerved to see Jesus sleeping through all of this. Fear and doubt had replaced their faith.`

TEACHER, DON’T YOU CARE?

Of course, Jesus could keep them safe. This was the time to trust in His presence to bring them through any storm that could arise, no matter how violent or how turbulent. In Mark 4:35-41, they asked: “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” Isn’t Jesus the same person who left the beauty of heaven to come to this dirty, sinful planet to rescue these same disciples from the pit of hell? Of course, Jesus cared if they drowned!

WHO IS THIS?

After the calming of the storm, the disciples asked, “ Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!” They wondered who Jesus is. Is it so hard to believe that the God who spoke things into existence also controls the weather?

MY MEMORABLE TRIP HOME

Why am I usually mystified when God changes events and saves me from my trainwreck decisions and circumstances? During these past months of Bill’s illness, there were times the storms threatened to overwhelm me. I was scared and thought the boat was sinking fast. One memorable moment was the evening of his first emergency trip to the ER. Bill’s health was in crisis. By the time he was moved up to a hospital room, I was physically and emotionally wiped out.

The hour was really late, and outside, the rain was torrential. I just wanted to get home to sleep for a few hours. Due to my eye condition, I have very little night vision. I was terrified of facing the drive home alone in the blinding rain. (My sons later asked me why I didn’t call an UBER, but that didn’t even occur to me.) Then I realized God was in charge. I would have preferred He sponsor a chariot of fire to transport me from LGH to our apartment, but instead, He sent His angels to guide my journey. I followed the taillights of the car in front of me and gloriously only hit one curb on my journey. He transported me home. He cared. Even the driving force of the storm obeyed Him.

DO WE TRUST ONLY WHEN THE SEAS ARE CALM?

It is easy to join the disciples in asking, “Don’t you care?” But that is foolish because I know He cares. He has and will bring us through this. The Bible says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight” (Proverbs 3:5-6). So, do we trust him just when the seas are calm? When everything is going smoothly? Or do we trust him when the dark clouds of fear and depression surround us, and life is overwhelming? Who is this? He is God!

STILL IN THE STORM

A “furious squall” overcomes the small vessel. Experienced fishermen scream in terror. The storm came out of nowhere with its sudden, violent, and intense burst of wind, accompanied by rain. The winds rapidly increase, visibility is zero, and the waves break over their craft. Will their boat soon be matchsticks? This is not a night to be caught out in the pitch-black water. No wonder they woke Jesus up and yelled, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” (Mark 4:35-40)

FIRST AMBULANCE RIDE

The week my husband took his first ambulance ride. He was experiencing grave difficulty breathing. Didn’t God hear Bill gasping for air? Doesn’t He care? “Jesus, don’t you care if we drown?” The waves threaten to bury us. Bill feels like his lungs are drowning.

WHY AM I SO AFRAID?

More than just speaking to my waves of fear, Jesus says to me, “Quiet! Be still!” Why am I so afraid? Does God plan to abandon us in the storm?

NECESSARY CHOICES

What are my choices? Jesus said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

THIRD HOSPITAL STAY IN FIVE MONTHS

As I write this, this is our third hospital stay within five months. I am tired. Bill is exhausted. Yet, God still asks us to choose. I can either roll up in a ball and give up, or I can begin declaring His Word, even if I do not feel it. My emotions often do not line up, but with the Psalmist, I firmly declare: “I relied completely on the Lord, and he turned toward me and heard my cry for help. He lifted me out of the watery pit, out of the slimy mud. He placed my feet on a rock and gave me secure footing. He gave me reason to sing a new song, praising our God. May many see what God has done, so that they might swear allegiance to him and trust in the Lord” (Psalm 40:1-3).

Jesus knows the waters we pass through. God knows the waves that threaten to drown us. He cares. “He gave me reason to sing a new song, praising our God. May many see what God has done, so that they might swear allegiance to Him and trust in the Lord.” Oh Lord, please keep me singing!!!!