When I entered this past September, I experienced great deal of panic that I couldn’t keep up with life or my schedule. I was still dragging from the pulmonary embolism. My responsibilities were exploding on my calendar. How could I keep up? I honestly looked at the month and quaked with fear. Facing my anxieties and handing all those commitments over to God, I entered the month. I expected to end the month alive…..but barely.
THE GOD MOMENTS
This morning, Sept. 30th, I was taking a tally of the number of God moments which happened during the month. I was honestly blown away. God was my Provider, Sustainer, Fortress, Savior, Father, Comforter, Strength-Giver, and Source of all wisdom (besides many other things).
I FELT LIKE I WAS PLAYING PING-PONG
One of my greatest concerns was that it was my month to I begin leading a new Writing With God session. Every Thursday evening we would meet for class. By the following Tuesday each participant was to send me their completed assignment. I would then write in possible edits and notes and send a return email. They often would send me a 2nd draft. I read that submission and emailed back more possible changes. And so it went. One eager participant loved to send me many drafts. I felt like I was playing ping-pong. It took a lot of thought, time, and grace to encourage and correct at the same time.
WHEN I FELT MY WEAKEST, GOD STOOD FIRM
God was there. Every moment. Each week. I was blown away at the gifting of the new participants and the growth in my regular students. Their stories made me laugh, cry, and rejoice in their honesty. What works of grace I was able to read and be part of. To be able to witness growth in others is always such a bonus. For me, the greatest miracle was that when I felt my weakest, God stood firm.
I AM HAPPY TO BE WEAK
I can bear witness to the testimony of the Apostle Paul. He was undergoing a severe health issue which he repeatedly asked God to heal. Paul wrote that in response to his prayers: He (God) answered me, “I am all you need. I give you My loving-favor. My power works best in weak people.” I am happy to be weak and have troubles so I can have Christ’s power in me. I receive joy when I am weak. I receive joy when people talk against me and make it hard for me and try to hurt me and make trouble for me. I receive joy when all these things come to me because of Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (II Corinthians 9-10)
I testify that for me this past September, I was weak, but God came out strong loud and clear.
