Read John 20:1-16
Have you ever taken time to linger in the Easter story? Rather than limit Easter, the most important event in Christianity, to a day or a week, do you see what God has for you today? What if you had a first-row seat? What might the resurrection have been from Mary Magdalene’s perspective? Did the following thoughts pass through her mind?
DEEP SEARING PAIN
I’ve experienced many pitch-black nights in my lifetime, but none as dark, long, and cold as this one. I am bone tired, but sleep eludes me. I cannot believe Jesus is gone. He is the One who saw me and rescued me. He is the One who knew everything about me and still loved me. He is the One who spoke more wisdom than anyone I have ever known. And He is gone. With Him there was hope and peace. Those have vanished as well. Tears will not stop. The searing pain is so deep. I might as well get up and go to where Jesus is. Even in death, it will feel good to be near Him, loving Him in the ritual of oils and spices. His body will be cold. I don’t know if I can handle that, but I must go. I am drawn to Him.
PANIC GRIPS MY MIND
Wrapped tightly in my cloak, I carry the precious bottles carefully. Slowly, I put one foot in front of the other and arrive at the grave before I really want to. His body is gone! Panic grips my mind. Why can’t they let Him rest in peace? Fury grips my heart as I run to find the disciples. Someone stole the one shred of comfort I had left in properly caring for Jesus’ body.
A VOICE CALLS MY NAME
When others arrive, John is fearful, like me. As usual, Peter’s boldness leads him straight into the grave and to the cloth left behind. They do not have the answers I desperately need. We are all lost, confused, and tormented. My heart feels dead, as heavy as a millstone. When they leave, I remain here, where Jesus was laid. Some of Jesus’ presence lingers with me. I hear a strange voice ask me, “Why are you crying? Who are you looking for?” My Lord. My center. My purpose for life. Everything is blurry from grief. I hear a familiar voice call my name.
NOTHING WAS WHAT I EXPECTED
“Jesus? Is that really you?!” My heart feels His heart instantly, and it beats wildly with joy. He is not cold and dead but very much alive! How??? Nothing in the last three days was what I expected. But He is here. I can breathe again. He is here! His presence is what I longed for. That is all I really need.
Put yourself in Mary Magdalene’s shoes. Have a conversation with Jesus as He asks you:
- “What are you looking for?”
- “Why are you crying?”
Tell Jesus what is on your heart. Slow down. Listen for His response. That is all you really need.
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