A “furious squall” overcomes the small vessel. Experienced fishermen scream in terror. The storm came out of nowhere with its sudden, violent, and intense burst of wind, accompanied by rain. The winds rapidly increase, visibility is zero, and the waves break over their craft. Will their boat soon be matchsticks? This is not a night to be caught out in the pitch-black water. No wonder they woke Jesus up and yelled, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” (Mark 4:35-40)
FIRST AMBULANCE RIDE
The week my husband took his first ambulance ride. He was experiencing grave difficulty breathing. Didn’t God hear Bill gasping for air? Doesn’t He care? “Jesus, don’t you care if we drown?” The waves threaten to bury us. Bill feels like his lungs are drowning.
WHY AM I SO AFRAID?
More than just speaking to my waves of fear, Jesus says to me, “Quiet! Be still!” Why am I so afraid? Does God plan to abandon us in the storm?
NECESSARY CHOICES
What are my choices? Jesus said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”
THIRD HOSPITAL STAY IN FIVE MONTHS
As I write this, this is our third hospital stay within five months. I am tired. Bill is exhausted. Yet, God still asks us to choose. I can either roll up in a ball and give up, or I can begin declaring His Word, even if I do not feel it. My emotions often do not line up, but with the Psalmist, I firmly declare: “I relied completely on the Lord, and he turned toward me and heard my cry for help. He lifted me out of the watery pit, out of the slimy mud. He placed my feet on a rock and gave me secure footing. He gave me reason to sing a new song, praising our God. May many see what God has done, so that they might swear allegiance to him and trust in the Lord” (Psalm 40:1-3).
Jesus knows the waters we pass through. God knows the waves that threaten to drown us. He cares. “He gave me reason to sing a new song, praising our God. May many see what God has done, so that they might swear allegiance to Him and trust in the Lord.” Oh Lord, please keep me singing!!!!
