Finally, a moment to breathe. I sit at a large window waiting for my appointment. The schedule runs late. During this time, I reflect. I realize I journeyed into “silent mode” with my friends. Taking up an inordinate amount of my brain are huge concerns regarding my appointment with the retinal specialist. Had the my macular edema increased? Was there permanent eye damage? My journey regarding vision has been a bumpy road for numerous years. The worries leave little room for my heart to dwell elsewhere.
GOD NUDGES ME, “COME BACK!”
I received the doctor’s verdict. The news is good. Suddenly, I notice the sun shining. I didn’t notice the beauty of the sky or anything else while my spirit traveled off track. Health concerns consumed me. God whispers but the noise in my mind clangs so fiercely that I ignore His voice. He nudges me, “Come back!”
There are no assurances that my eye condition won’t worsen; that further treatment won’t be necessary. Regardless, He is still in control. Yes, I exist with a persistent low hum of fear in my spirit regarding my permanent double vision and lack of depth perception. Going for a walk can be quite an adventure when I cannot tell where the curb is.
GOD’S PLAN IS NOT SILENT MODE
However, God accompanies me on every walk. The days I find it difficult to read words on a page, He is there. My loving Savior leads me, even though it is challenging for me to see in the dark. He wants me to sing, to laugh and to talk with Him. God’s plan for me is not the silent mode.
And so, I continue talking with my Savior. The road may seem uncertain, but He knows the way.
I cry out to the Lord; I plead for the Lord’s mercy. I pour out my complaints before him and tell him all my troubles. When I am overwhelmed, You alone know the way I should turn. (Psalm 142:1-3)
