I was underwater and drowning fast due to circumstances mostly out of my control. Torn and shredded, my heart didn’t know if there was a way back.
A specific passage helped me to begin to breathe again. Psalm 34:18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. 19 The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all; 20 he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken. These few verses literally saved my life
In my brokenness, I pushed God further and further away. Afterall, God doesn’t want to be around rubbish, does He? That’s what I felt like: trash; something good for nothing. I assumed that my mess was my own and not till everything was straightened out could I feel close to God again.
But that’s not what this passage says. When we are broken, that’s the time which magnetizes God to us. I thought He was the One stepping away, but in fact, it was me who was running away from Him.
I didn’t think there could be healing and wholeness. Little did I know that even though healing would take time, I could be made stronger than ever before. The good thing was that the new stronger was way better than my previous vision of strength.
Maybe it’s time to start letting these couple of verses soak and marinate into your soul, your heart, your mind and your life. Please don’t put God on pause. When I tried that, it just made restoration take so much longer. I lost so much time forgetting: “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”