MY CROOKED LIFE

My eyesight is never upright. When I pull into a parking spot at church, regardless of my best intentions, my Kia ends up crooked between the lines.

image of crooked parking

I have permanent double vision. Even with a prism lens over my right eye, my vision is remains crooked. The word “upright” means to be erect; not bent or curved. My eyesight is never upright. When I pull into a parking spot at church, regardless of my best intentions, my Kia ends up crooked between the lines. One time a church parking attendant called this to my attention. I replied, “Sorry, that’s as good as it gets.” My vision is not upright, it is bent and curved.

PERMANENTLY BENT, CROOKED AND FLAWED

Both upright physical vision and upright spiritual living are impossible for me via my own resources. My spirit is crooked; permanently bent with sin.  Gift Gugu Mona (a South African poet and writer) wrote, “There can be no one better than yourself, so be the best version of you because no one is born to represent another.”. Sorry Ms. Mona, you are dead wrong. All of us are a version permanently bent, crooked and flawed by sin.

REBORN INTO HIS VERSION

This changed when I found new life in Christ. I was reborn into His version, meant to represent Him every second of the day. Born to reflect Him and Him alone.

POOR, POOR ISAIAH

Transported to heaven, the prophet Isaiah realizes that the best version of himself is in ruins. “I saw the Lord, high and exalted, seated on a throne; and the train of his robe filled the temple. Above him were seraphim, each with six wings: …And they were calling to one another: “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.” … the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.

“Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty” (Isaiah 6:1-5). Isaiah acknowledges he is lethally ruined by sin. No matter how he tries to live a self-controlled, upright and godly life, he is fatally crooked.

OUR CROOKED WORLD

Like the Cretins in Titus 2:11-14, we live in a confusing, crooked world, hardened by evil. The clock ticks away while we wait for the blessed hope, the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Christ Jesus. What are we as believers to do as the minutes pass by?

Jesus Christ, didn’t come teach us to be the best version of ourselves and give us pointers on how to be nicer people. He gave Himself for us to redeem us from all wickedness and to purify for Himself a people that are His very own, eager to do what is good. God knows that even with all our best intentions, we are not upright. On our own we are bent, crooked and downright wicked.

COME TO THE END OF YOURSELF

Kara Tippetts observed, “When you come to the end of yourself, that’s when something else can begin.” Only by His grace can we come to the end of ourselves, and be redeemed and purified to be His possession, His people.

ENTHUSIASTIC FOR DOING GOOD

Christ’s purpose was to redeem us and purchase our freedom from all wickedness, and to purify for Himself a chosen and very special people to be His own possession, who are enthusiastic for doing what is good. He alone is the One Who changes and empowers us to be upright and spiritually park straight between His lines. We no longer have to live crooked.

Suggested reading – Kara Tippetts’ book: The Hardest Peace: Expecting Grace in the Midst of Life’s Hard

Author: Jacquelin Stoner

Jacqui is a writer, teacher, life coach, and an encourager. She walks alongside of individuals who need help navigating to the better place God has envisioned for their lives. She has discovered that God is central to genuine lasting life change.

Delight in helping women to discover wholeness in their "New Normal".